I've always wondered how Alex copes with me. I try to imagine what it's like to have no private thoughts at all but I can't.
It's probably because I'm the one who ruins his privacy anyway. Nobody has any privacy from me, nobody can keep their secrets from me. I was supposed to grow up, find my theos, and take my place at the head of the family.
But my theos alienated me from the family, even though it was accepted us Ashenburys couldn't have private thoughts, the thought of having none at all must have scared them.
My theos works like a high definition motion picture of my... target's life, from start to finish, what they see, what they hear, what they think. Granted, I don't remember anything they don't remember, amnesiacs are safe from me. The pivotal moments of their life, their most exhilarating or terrifying memories stick out like sore thumbs and those are usually the ones I remember.
As Elite, don't have great childhoods, our traumatic moments number in the thousands, the wars we have amongst each other affect more than just us. They affect the innocent humans, their livelihoods, their homes, the environment, the economy... I could go on.
Every Royal child has at least one memory they'd like to forget, and the more they forget the more they remember. Every time I read a Royal, I can't sleep for days because their memories haunt me. A Noble usually haunts me for a day, an Elite for a few hours and a human... usually not at all.
consider: As elites, we don't have great childhoods
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Thanks abs, it sounds much more natural now :)
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