13. Chae

I spent last night thinking.


What am I supposed to do?


What do I do about my grandfather? What do I do about a vacant 'head'? What do I do about my father's murderer?


I can't allow my grandfather to be our 'head.' The idea is unacceptable, repulsive, it's just wrong. I hope he agrees to step dpwn quietly... or what? Or I ask the family to rebel? I expose him?



Do I leave him alone? No matter what, he's my mother's murderer. Doesn't he need to face the consequences? What about Tae? I can't let him... let him get revenge the way he wants to. Theres a saying... "An eye for an eye would make the world blind." - Gandhi. 


I have to punish my grandfather, but no so much he becomes a threat. Or I could kill him, but that would be wrong. Because killing is wrong, but he's wrong. He killed...


I don't know how to deal with my father's death. I need Willow. I need her to tell me my family is innocent. I need her to help me find the culprits. Willow's domain, she's the thinker, the information. I'm the brute, the strength.


One of the three my father took down that night had stayed alive, but after waking, had committed suicide. Cyanide pill between the teeth. Pity. I wanted to have a good talk with him. All of the dead intruders had scars, like binding pentagons imprinted upon the fresh. Small. Raw, too. They were marked.